This shit made me laugh out loud! Haha this is why I’m uncertain about having babies.
(Source: hooyahman)
WE ARE ALL CONNECTED..TO EACH OTHER..TO EVERYTHING
There are times when we may feel disconnected from the world. Our actions can seem like they are of no major consequence, and we may feel like we exist in our own vacuum. Yet, the truth is that our simplest thought or action - the decisions we make each day, and how we see and relate to the world - can be incredibly significant and have a profound impact on the lives of those around us, as well as the world at large. The earth and everything on it is bound by an invisible connection between people, animals, plants, the air, the water, and the soil. Insignificant actions on your part, whether positive or negative, can have an impact on people and the environment that seem entirely separate from your personal realm of existence. Staying conscious of the interconnection between all things can help you think of your choices and your life in terms of the broader effect you may be creating.
Think of buying a wooden stool. The wood was once part of a tree which is part of a forest. A person was paid to fell the tree, another to cut the wood, and yet another to build the stool. Their income may have had a positive effect on their families, just as the loss of the tree may have had a negative impact on the forest or the animals that made that tree their home. An encouraging word to a young child about their special talent can influence this person to develop their gift so that one day their inventions can change the lives of millions. A poem written “merely” to express oneself can make a stranger reading it online from thousands of miles away feel less alone because there is someone else out there who feels exactly the way they do.
Staying conscious of your connection to all things can help you think of your choices in terms of their impact. We are powerful enough that what we do and say can reverberate through the lives of people we may never meet. Understanding that you are intimately connected with all things and understanding your power to affect our world can be the first step on the road to living more consciously.
Blessed
I am truly blessed and thankful. I’ve come a long way in 5 months. It’s almost miraculous. Suicidal to the happiest I’ve been in years in a matter of 5 months without therapy or any magic pill. I healed myself through meditation. I surrounded myself with people who love me. Its crazy how omitting one person from your life can make all the difference. I’m stronger mentally and physically than I’ve ever been. Every day is a good day. I don’t have bad days anymore. Every day I wake up with excitement and I’m ready to take on the day. I’m even going to bed earlier and waking up earlier. There is no man responsible for my happiness and that is a great feeling. I did it. I’ve given myself the love and respect that I’ve always deserved and I’m happy. There is no void to fill. I am free! I have more energy than ever even when I’ve hardly slept because I’m always so excited. I finally feel for the first time in my life, that I am taking steps in the right direction to who I want to be and where I want to be. I’m going after my dreams. I took Tanja’s class today and I she is my favorite instructor in LA. I’m not a member of Crunch so I havent taken her class in 6 months. I remember admiring her so much and thinking that she is guru. Today in class I felt that I had her energy. I could do what she does. 6 months ago I just wanted it but I didn’t feel I had it in me. Now I have it in me. It’s a beautiful thing.
Gross
I had a dream about David two nights ago. It felt real and I woke up disturbed. He and I were working out together and it was current times so we were broken up. I still hated him but I worked out with him to give him a chance to speak and say whatever the hell he had to say. It said some bullshit and I knew he was lying because I can see through him now so I left the gym early and went to his house because I wanted to see if he was lying. His new gf answered the door (in the dream he claimed to not have a gf). Anyway, her and I talked shit about him and she was telling me that he’s such a player, etc etc. I was asking her why she was with him which is a dumb questions cuz girls are dumb when they are in love. Anyway, he came home and I was there and he was pissed. He gets mad when he gets caught and still defends his actions somehow. He’s really got some screws missing. I remember there were like 20 strawberry baskets there in his living room and in the dining room. I asked him if he was selling the strawberries (this is the humorous random part of the dream). He never did explain all the strawberries. Anyway, his gf was kinda cute but definitely definitely a step down from me. Thats usually how it goes though. Anyway, that dream really pissed me off and I woke up upset.
Proud of myself
I’m doing it. I’m becoming the person I want to be. I’m making the moves and making things happen. I spend 9.5 hours in a piloxing certification class today and spent $420 on it. I’m training clients again and I’m gonna try to start a bootcamp on Saturdays. I’m busier than hell working 6-7 days per week but staying comfortable was never going to change my life. Working my ass off in the field of my passion will. I already feel like in a couple weeks to a month I’m going to need to cut my hours at the restaurant. My goal is to completely quit in the next 6 months because I’ll have a booming business and I won’t have time for that second job. I have good people in my life and I’m so thankful. I’m doing a great job of not dating and saying “no” to guys even when I desperately want to say “yes.” I have a muy thai kickboxing trainer now too (on top of all the busyness) and he asked me when I was available to train this week and hang out after. I told him I can’t hang out after even though I felt bad because I know he really wants to hang out with me. I’m sure at the end of the day, he wants to sleep with me so what am I really feeling bad for? I’m taking care of myself. Noone else will. I’m happier than I have been in a long time. I’m gaining weight because of it too which isn’t good, but I’m still more attractive than I was before because I have a smile on my face and good energy. Thats far more attractive than a skinny person who is sad and miserable. I’m still stronger than ever and I have men on me likes flies on shit. I just need to stop eating so much. The new moon/solar eclipse tonight is in my 1st house and I’m feeling it!
